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IVF & Infertility, Pursuit of Happiness

Twinning with Newborns

As a new mother of twins I’ve found some things to be true. Those of which I list here with the lightest of hearts, the sunniest of dispositions and so much love for my two little fellas. Enjoy! Victory is Mine! The biggest battles come in the dead of night but they also happen in the day. Every parent has a different defense but the logistics and sentiments are much the same. Sleep, sleep is the end game. It’s the beacon at the end of the battle, layden with a cozy bed, sweet dreams and the perfect pillow. The scene is mostly dark with a hint of light coming from a small corner of the room. It’s eerily quiet for a moment and then loud cries break through the silence and burst into the ears of the unassuming warrior. At first the sound stops them in their tracks, with a cringe and then they rush to grab their weapons for battle: two sleepsacks, two pairs of socks, two long-sleeved shirts, a Nose Frida and two bottles of freshly warmed milk! The battle cries become louder and louder as the warrior gathers their items, panic sets in and then scrambling, running, […]

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IVF & Infertility, Pursuit of Happiness

A Letter to My Boys

My Sweet Boys- There’s a saying that I’ve used before and it goes like this: “I love you more than you’ll ever know.” I was sitting in the airport just months before you were born, waiting for a plane to take your dad and I on our last trip together before you joined us. As people started to arrive for the flight, I watched as the children flocked to the play gym in the middle of the airport walkway, running around, squealing, trying out every part of it: the slide, the monkey bars, the stairs up to the “castle”, the toys at the long table next to it. I watched and smiled, rubbing my belly and thinking of you two. That’s when this phrase came to mind. I thought about it real hard, and about all of the things that I want to teach you boys, that I want to make sure that you know through and through. Then I decided to write you this letter. So that no matter what is going on in your life, no matter what obstacles you face, people you meet, places you discover, moments you create or choices you make, you will always have […]

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IVF: The Wait is Over

After all of the days and all of the nights of counting down. After all of the days and all of the nights of waiting. After all of the days and all of the nights of hoping. Wishing. Trying. It was finally happening…or was it? We would soon find out. The transfer took place on August 31st. I had about 36 hours of bed rest and then I could resume back to semi-normal. No workouts or fermented hop and grape beverages but everything else could resume. Honestly I felt like I was made of glass, that I had to be so careful so as not to disturb those embryos from a firm grasp on this uterus of mine. Nine. Nine days. Nine days left. Nine days left before the big reveal. One would think I was absolutely going mad but honestly it was the opposite. I knew that Spence and I had done everything right, we had done everything that was asked of us in the right way with the right intentions. I knew that Dr. Barbieri and her staff had done everything right, done everything they knew how to do and with the right intentions. The final test of […]

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In Vitro: The Transfer

So there we were with the results of the genetic testing. Two amazing miracle embryos! We were excited for the step to begin but as always…there was another wait and it wouldn’t be the last. Fortunately our tolerance was building so it was getting less demanding on the heart and the brain. Spence and I were anxious. We were super anxious, counting down the days to our next appointment so we could find out the sex of our babies! *Remember the genetic testing was done on the XY chromosomes so that’s why we could find out so soon.* It seemed like forever since we were at ORM. Then, the door opened. I held my breath and they called my name. Huge moment. Lots of emotions. We walked back to Dr. Barbieri’s office all the while chatting with the nurse and making small talk. We reached Barbieri’s office where it all began in November of 2014. Surreal seems to be the word of choice during this process and it fit like a glove in this situation as well. We sat on the couch, Dr. Barbieri in a chair in front of us, her scribe standing just inside to the left of […]

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In Vitro: The Wait

*Man readers beware, I get a little bit graphic describing a problem that we ladies have sometimes. It’s only one paragraph but I’ll give you another fair warning before I go into detail further into the story. The egg retrieval had just taken place and then it was time to wait…again. Directly after the procedure I had no idea that I would actually feel worse than I did before. Leading up to it, I was quite uncomfortable but afterwards came the constipation from the anesthesia, soreness, a bladder infection and I felt chubby…the kind of chubby where every time I tried to get into my jeans it was like I was a sleeping bag and someone was shoving me back into the packaging I came in…impossible. My workout routine had been extinct and our sex life had to take a backseat to letting my ovaries grow with follicles. On top of everything, I had the anxiety of knowing we were certainly not out of the woods yet. There were several steps left and so many tests for our little embryos to pass before we could get to the transfer. That said, the fear and the wait were the worst. On […]

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